A new beginning....

After 4 years of sweat and tears..and by God's grace we finally graduated...YAHOO!!..a new chapter of our lives is about to unfold..I wonder what is in store for me??...well there is no point guessing coz God's thoughts and plans are higher than ours..only He knws what is coming my way...i better hold on tight..its gonna be an exciting and exhilarating ride..hehe...

Dear God, when will you reveal to me your ways and your plans for my life? How long more shall I wait Lord?. I've been cracking my head for so long trying to comprehend the purpose that He has for my life, the trials that come my way and the burdens that I carry today. Teach me Oh Lord how to lay it all down. The baggages have become utterly heavy for me to even move. Every step I take excruciating pain will follow on. How long, how much more time Lord?. When is it that the river will flow a different way for the present flow is eroding the riverbed. Show me Lord, show me plz. I hope to achieve true happiness and it only comes from you dear Lord, and not from things or man. I have been let down, disappointment crept into my mind, sorrow overwhelmed me. Lord plz free me and let me experience your joy. Whatever I did, has it all gone to waste? Did I do it to glorify you Lord? or was it inevitably due to my self-centeredness? Correct my ways dear Lord and match it with your ways. I can't go on without you. You are my only hope, the love of my life. I pray that your ppl will begin to experience you in a whole new level. When they give their lives to you, they will bask in your presence, ever so comforting for the soul and that they will rest in your holiness. Your loving arms will embrace them so close to your heart. Fear of the future will soon be gone but only peace remains.

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Funky Nails...

I had my pedicure done today with my galfrens at a place called "kuku spa"...creative name huh?..yeah and i'm quite happy with my funky shiny turquoise toe nails..yipee!!..yoyo...funky...mwuahaha!!

A gals nite out...

So there we were..in the middle of ipoh town deciding where to hang out on fri nite. We are toking about IPOH man...its suppose to be a nice and quiet little town where ppl retire after an exhausting day to relax and rejuvenate..Only when there are ppl like us always creating havoc wherever we went...haha...that's our job...rocking ipoh town haha. Thinking back during high school days where wld just create a scene and ppl will all look at us and think where on earth these hooligans (is that how u spell it?) came from..now unfortunately we don't really have that much energy to do so...what da ya expect..we grow old too ya knw haha...nowadays we rather sit down and ramble about skin care products and what to do with those wrinkle lines showing up on our once to be youthful looking face. Gosh time flies!!...one by one seeing all my good buddies graduating..one is now a pharmacist in sabah, another just graduated as a doc..that day she suddenly told us..."plz don't be obliged to call me Doc. Sumi"...we were like what??...so much for being humble haha...nway we are really proud of her..good for us also la...at least next time when we are ill "FREE" consultation...mwuahaha..another fren of mine was already asking my doc fren to give her loads of medical leave certs haha...We have another two docs yet to graduate in a yr or two..that won't be long...Soon i will be attending lavish weddings..haha...can't wait to be singing at their weddings...that is when my voice training comes in handy..so i'm not giving up on those weekly oooooo.....lessons...Yeah so after cracking our heads on where to have dinner...we finally decided to have some sushi for the nite..this particular japanese rest serves really good sushi.."KIZUNO" is the name..the cucumber maki (not the normal cucumber strips in the middle..its rather specially prepared), dragon maki and the tempura is a must try...bento sets are good too...yeah...after that we went to mamak...can u imagine?..this is what ipoh ppl do..makan, makan, and makan...we were supposed to go to the gym like 2 weeks back and guess what happened...it didn't work out...my fren came out with the idea that we must use reverse psychology that when we think we want to be fat, we will automatically be thin...i was like..aha??...what??..very funny..n not to mention she is the doc i was toking about earlier...so much of what they taught her during the medical training...hahaha...so we bought the latest hello magazine coz we were told that our fren's pic with her fiancee (malaysian cyclist..Josiah Ng) was in it..they featured her being proposed in the london eye...how romantic rite...they are such a sweet couple..awww..CONGRATS on your engagement!!..

Lalala...voice training...behind the scenes...

Today is my second week of voice training. Ppl asked me how was it..I repeatedly said it ain't easy hehe. Yeah, imagine 1 whole hr trying to get the oooo...rite...i think i can sing better than a crow already..haha..At first, i couldn't grasp what the trainer was trying to tell me..as though she was speaking in french or sumthing. Everytime she says sumthing I go aha?...!!??...Trainer: You have to produce sound and not make sound...aha?..!??...(I thought I got it even though the words producing and making sounds the same to me)....Trainer: Use ur prowerhse to produce sound...aha?....!???...powerhse??..she meant using the diaphragm, and ribcage...Trainer: Use ur mind to produce the sound...aha??....!!!??????....scratch head..cld u plz repeat that??..Yeah so there I was trying to fathom how to sing a tune "PROPERLY"...haha...told ya in ain't easy...all these years i was using the wrong technique...she cld easily tell coz she was like me too years back and it took her 9 months...i repeat "9 MONTHS"...to learn the correct way...at that moment my hope n dreams all seemed distant (exageratng le...getting too drama...hahahha...hopefully...fingers crossed that it would not take that long otherwise i will have to sing oooooo.....for the rest of my life...u dun hope that too rite..hahha...chao!!

A great book..get ur hands on it quick!!

I think its safe for me to say that blogging is fun and its kinda addictive haha. Maybe coz I have all the time in the world now...that is before I start working of course..Hopefully my new working hrs don't drain my energy all out coz that would be leaving just dry bones at the end of the day..well I don't know what to write about at this very moment...hmmm....let me see...give me a sec to let all my inspirational and philosophical brain juices blend in together..haha..here goes..why is it that some ppl are so unpredictable?..complicated human emotions i guess...see the word EMOTION simply means a broad repertoire of perceptions, expressions of feelings and bodily changes..up and down it goes..ever changing..never satisfying. It comes about at the very core of how we control our minds to think...emotions follows after every thought that crosses of minds. When we think that something its not going to work then we will automatically feel that way. If we think that through experiences that the situation is going to be the same then our so called "intuition" (feelings in simple words)will tell us so. We can't simply start proclaiming that situations will always be the same, relationships are never built to lasts, i can never trust anyone, there are no genuine ppl around, my life is always in a mess, i will never be able to give my heart out fully because i was hurt again and again, nobody is faithful, nobody understands, nobody really loves me, i'm a loner. Why tell yourself all these negative things??...We meet different ppl every time, our environment changes and the best and most important of all we have a GOD who is all mighty and powerful. If ppl could just stop managing their own lives but instead hand it over to the potter, all will work out fine. Why don't you trust God that He understands the pain which you went through previously and knows the desires of your heart. Which of you, if his sons asks for bread, will give him stone?or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!(matt 7:9-11). Even if you don't ask He already knows how to give you the very best.

LOVE never fails

Yesterday, I asked God a question and here was how it went:


COG : Lord, how can you stand the hurt when people prosecuted you, betrayed you?

GOD : The answer is LOVE...

COG : LOVE?...How do you do it....soo hard...

GOD : People will eventually be drawn back because of LOVE just like how you found
your way back to me....because I 1st loved you and loved you ever since....

(1 Corinthians 13:4-8)
Love is patient, love is kind,
It does not envy, it does not boast,
It is not proud, it is not rude,
It is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs,
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

Not even one of the lines above says that LOVE hurts because it is not supposed to but instead it surpasses and overcomes all others.

And now these 3 remains:

FAITH, HOPE and LOVE. But the greatest of these is LOVE..

What are HIS plans??

I try each time to discern God's plans for my life but until now I haven't gotten a clue to what He wants to teach me. Everything seems vague and I can't see the big picture of all that is happening. A month back HIS answer was WAIT..and then the word WAIT again..but WAIT for what GOD?..I don't understand..tell me more??..what exactly do you want me to WAIT?..I was listening to a sermon that day about GOD being in control of everything. The pastor told the congregation to not keep resisting the situations which we face. We may not like where we are rite now...we wonder why it happened...or why is it me...why my life is in a mess...why the pain..how long is it I'm going to suffer this way..God can ease all the pain immediately but we wouldn't learn from what HE wants to teach us would we?..HE will not remove us from the situation just yet until we are able to see through HIS eyes and learn. At times I do wanna quit and walk out through the easy exit..sometimes I'm tempted to say ya know what GOD..I'm done waiting, I don't think I can take it anymore. But i realize by doing that, we will never be able to fulfill HIS purposes for our lives and we may be going through the same situations over and over again. If we could have stayed and learn, HE would give us the key to unlock all that is too life filled with abundance of joy, love, peace, blessings...everything we could ever wish for in life..God wants what is best for us...sometimes we thought that what we have right now is the best that we can get but that might not be what God sees. He wants to give us the very best..so why do we want to settle for second best?

Total Self-EXPOSURE...(not recommended for the faint hearted)

I have anger (I don't think you wanna try me..hehe)
I do get jealous
I envy
I slander (unknowingly or knowingly)
I am selfish (especially when it comes to the food i like keke)
I am impatient at times
I get moody
I can't stand some ppl
I don't know how to say "NO"
I am soft
I am harsh
I pretend sometimes
I have bad habits
I get irritated
I love to sing (make sure u don't have exquisite glass pieces at home)
I love to eat (not as much as Christina though)
I find it hard to love sometimes
I say sorry too many times (I'm better now..hehe)
I break promises (minor ones but still a promise is a promise rite)
I complaint
I am emotional
I nag
I am clumsy
I am lazy (hols ma)
I am afraid to admit my faults (what on earth am I doing now man)
I want to get married someday
I am loving
I am quite siao
I have funny ways
I like carrot juice but hates carrots
I am loyal
I love bags (lavish them on me folks)
I am SABRINA @ BRINA @ SAB @ SAB-HA @ BRI-BRI @ BRINEY

You see I have many flaws too..I mean who doesn't..Exposing them doesn't make me vulnerable but it gives me an opportunity to be honest about myself. It is admitting to God that I too make mistakes and need to be moulded plus refined by His divine hands.
P/S: Thanx Christina for making me think about my own flaws..I'm inspired by ur courage to be honest about oneself.

Another side of me revealed...

If you asked me to describe myself I really don't know where to start. There is no prototype to explain a complex individual that man can really understand fully, hey even I at times don't really un my likings, attitudes, figure of speech etc. They change every now and then ya know..there is no like a labelled SABRINA where ppl think ya that's her...same old her kinda thought..ppl use to call me the "goody goody girl" the typical type of girl who doesn't want to dirty her shoes,only listens to her mum, have never broken rules, stays at home with her family 24/7, doesn't simply mix around,contented with where i am, have curfew hrs etc..I don't quite agree..I'm not saying ya know like I'm some kinda wacko who has a split personality...its just that the way ppl describe its not all me and fullstop at the end..well we are continuously moulded by our surroundings, ppl that we meet and talk to and of course our God..so we aren't pretty much the same person like we used to be 10 years back..I would say I've grown a lot through the years..and is still growing and changing...my taste, my wants and don'ts are different everytime...i want to explore places, see different things, meet different ppl(i want to be a ppl person-able to mingle with any grps), dine at various restaurants (local, fine dining), make enough money to buy the things i like, get a nice car and a hse(I guess my fren cld give me some tips coz she is into planning and design), do a complete make over(looking fabuloso...(i thought that was a brand name for a flr cleaner haha), bringing my voice to another level,not just doing the things i'm trained to do but more than that...i want an exciting life too..i wldn't want to settle for mediocrity...I wish to achieve more than what I am today...He wants us to live life to the full till it overflows (John 10:10)God wants us to have a good life, a life filled with love, joy, peace and fulfillment. God doesn't want us to drag through life, barely making it. He doesn't want us to have to scrape and scrimp, trying to cope up with enough money to pay for food, shelter, transportation, to pay bills. It is not His preference for us to live in perpetual pain. Start seeing urself as more than a conqueror, well able to succeed, strong in the Lord, the head and not the tail, the victor and not the victim, and u will see urself rising to a new level of fulfillment.